The Arrow

   Hello everyone. It's me. Today was such a weird day. I went to the dentist to get my teeth checked for the braces that I might get. The orthodontist said that I would have them for two years if I were to get them. He also mentioned something weird. That I swallow like a baby does. He said that there are 10-20% of people that don't change into the normal swallowing change. So I swallow with my tongue pushing out towards my teeth. While other people swallow by putting their tongue to the roof of their mouth. Anyways he also said that I have a long tongue. So that is why I am pushing it towards my teeth. Well that sucks because he also said that if I continue to swallow as I do that when the braces get taken off that my teeth will lift a little as a result. Okay, well enough of that. I didn't sleep last night because my sister decided to let her "friend" sleep over without asking my parents first. In fact she snuck him in and then snuck him out. It wasn't till later that I found out he was her boyfriend. I swear no one tells me anything. Only to make things worse me and my siblings had to keep quiet that he was here. So she practically dragged us into her problem. The guy doesn't seem like a bad guy. I met him yesterday he seems like a calm person. That wasn't the problem though. The problem was that she drags us into her problems all the time. So since my brother and sister share the room and her boyfriend spent the night. By brother of course wouldn't go to bed. So I offered him to sleep in my bed, and he did which was good. The thing is that I had to break an all nighter. But I slept 30 min prior to my dentist appointment. Oh and I got some of my chemistry project done in that time. So that was good too.

    I am feeling a bit stressed now. Well a lot stressed. I got some sleep after the dentist's appointment and when I woke up I felt a pain in my chest. But only it wasn't physical but like an emotion. You know when you feel sad or happy, it was that kind of emotion. It was pain though. Pain that my soul was leaking out. It hurt so bad that I almost cried. I rarely cry. Only when it hurts a lot. It was the type of pain that you hold in, that you don't let yourself feel till later. Only now all that stored pain was leaking out. Then I remembered what I read on Tumblr it was a picture of an arrow that said this:

An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backwards. When life is dragging you with difficulties, it means it's going to launch you into something great. So just focus, and keep aiming. 

That is lovely isn't it. I am so down at this point right now when I woke up I felt even worse than I previously do. Like my life, my source of life, the only thing that I could feel was being pulled out of me. It hurt. And I don't know why that happened. But afterwards I felt something. I felt life. And that felt good. I think what happened is that I had a really tough week.

   Besides all of this I am happy that there is only two weeks of school left. I wonder what my score was in the chemistry test. I have so many things to do this upcoming week. I haven't studied for physiology because that class is so difficult. But I will just try to do the questions in the back of the book and look at his powerpoints. I have a low B in that class so I have to focus but my mind and body don't want to study for that class. I hate that class just because I memorized all his power points which were 200 slides. But one of the people that I have in that class told me that she does the back of the book questions and the online quizzes and that is how she has an A in that class. I am made because his tests are all the quizzes that he gives online and whatever but I who spends time memorizing the power points can't have an A. I knew there was a reason why I didn't want to take him this semester. So now I am mad at the teacher ugh.

    It's Tuesday today and I got a B on the chemistry exam. The teacher is giving extra credit so that would help me get an A. Good thing that the final is all multiple choice because her other tests were you either know it or you don't type of thing. So this would be good. I am mid way this week, I have my history and chemistry essay and project, heavy things due tomorrow. So I want to take a shower because I went to the gym and I can't because I ate and then my blood pressure would go up if I go right now. I will go in 8 min, because I can't stand not being able to do anything. Okay I must go now. I'll be back on saturday to finish writing this.

    Hello, it's Thursday night. I know I was supposed to post this way earlier but you know how things go when we are getting closer to the end of school. I am happy that there is only one week of school left. That week is going to be hell. I am going to try to study hard for my Chemistry class because the final is 200 points, also for physiology because that class is so difficult. It's so difficult to memorize and understand all the things that are happening in your body. Wish me luck guys because I know that finals week is going to be hard. I guess I'll just post this now. Well off to study... maybe haha. Tumblr always helps me procrastinate. I guess I'll just do the physiology quiz to get it out of the way. Goodbye and to all of those who are going through finals good luck!