Tired of the Cold

 
                                                      Tired of the Cold

      Today my "friend" and I were supposed to go watch a movie in theaters with my sister and her friend. Which is cool I was excited about going to watch "The Hobbit." I even woke up early (5 am) to study for my driving test so I would be able to make it to the movie at the set time. When studying I gave up and started watching Doctor Who, great episode that was. I stayed up the whole time studying and that was okay but then my mom said that I would have to choose between going to the theaters and taking the exam. I chose the theaters because I didn't want to mess up the plan that we all agreed about. About thirty minutes before we had to go to the theater, my friend decides to not go. She says that her mom was taking care of a kid and that then she had to take care of him because her mom had to go to work. I know this shouldn't strike hard on me but I also told my sister and her friend that we were going to go. My sisters friend came from Huntington Park, in which he had to be in the bus for three hours just to get here... I feel so bad for just making him come. Hopefully he and my sister are not bored.
   
     Well, so I asked my other friend to join me and my sister and her friend, just to hangout. No movie. Just sitting. She then said that she had to check with her parents, I waited and then she said that she had to wait for her mom. I got the hint. Called her out on it, she made and excuse, and I pretended like it was okay. Now, I know I may sound a bit harsh but if you don't want to hang out then just say so from the beginning. Don't waste my time, just say it straight.
   
    I am now just sitting here in my room. Alone wondering how it got to this. I used to love people, I would help them in anything, in anyway I could. I guess it was just experience, you know you put your trust in someone and then they stab you in the back. In spite of that, I still think people are good. We all make mistakes for we are human and nobody is perfect. I just keep that in mind, me myself is not perfect. We all are not. I just hope to some day find someone who's great. A friend that's all I'm asking for, someone who knows not of jealousy, or anger. A pure soul. Would be the great friend to anybody. Now, I am aware that nobody is perfect like I have stated previously; I just want someone who will have my back you know someone who won't call me stupid or ugly like my so called "friends" have.   

     I was watching a BBC  bibliography about Vincent Van Gogh earlier today, may I say simple wonderful. I haven't finished it yet but Benedict Cumberbatch as Van Gogh is great. I shall finish it after I am done writing.

     I hope I can pass my driving test (written part) tomorrow or on Tuesday. I am too old to not have a drivers licence. I have studied but I need to study more, just till I feel confident when walking into the exam. Its embarrassing to say but I am twenty years old so I need the licence not only for my benefit but for my parents. So I can help them take my siblings to school as well as myself.

     My mom applied for a job today, so she can get out of the crummy job she has at Kohl's. Too much drama she's putting up with there. Well I wish her the best of luck on getting the job.

     Well, I guess I'm off to study then. Wish me and my mom luck, my lovely audience, which I lack.